New goals to focus on

Well, continuing from my last post I continue to be driven to change in my life from convictions in my mind and in what I read. As I read a Thomas Watson work called "Holy violence" based on a Matthew passage I see myself again so far from what I am called to be. I realize how much time I waste and how many things I fill my life with that have no meaning. Yes, I finished first in the regular season of my fantasy football league and what did it profit me? NOTHING. I wasted time and thought on something that brought me no reward, didn't glorify God or serve my family. In other words, I wasted my time completely. I fill my life with movies, sports and current events to the point where I leave a smaller time for God. I have weeks with less time in scripture than on ESPN.com. Pretty smart, eh?

Well, I am attacking the problem. Yesterday I didn't turn on the tube for any NFL games, even with my favorite player playing for a chance at the play-offs. I didn't spend all day in the Word or in great books, but I am working on it. I spent time with my family and read some. But I realized at the end of the day I had accomplished a win in the battle. I had disciplined myself to cut out a worthless activity, seemingly an easy task. But many times I went for the remote or thought about checking the scores, only to have to remind myself of my plan. I know that the NFL isn't evil in itself, but when I spend more time on it in a day than with the Lord, I am a fool. I pray the Lord can forgive me and continue to convict me of my lack. I want to be more for Him, closer to Him, driven to be more like Him. I love Him, I need Him, I cannot do anything without Him. Please Lord love me and keep me, draw me and show me, discipline me and bring me close to You above all else.