Jonathan

Well, there has been another huge disparity in my posts. As my job picked up to 50 hours a week I have been short on time, but not an excuse. I started this for a reason and that reason is enough. I have written before my huge break about my wonderful wife and how much I love her. She is my soul mate. I can't imagine loving anyone more. She is so important to me and a huge catalyst for me being who I am. I want to be the best I can for her and my boys.

That makes it tough and challenging because they deserve my best and anything I do must be so or I fail them. I must lead at all times and never back down from my God-given responsibility. I pray that when my time to go home comes that I have done all that is within me. I want to "leave everything on the field." My family deserves my all in all. I must strive daily to be give all I have and push myself to be better.

This being said, I will move on from my wife to my children. I have 3 sons, and a daughter on the way. One of my sons was taken to glory before I ever held him. His name is Jonathan Aaron. He was born on February 13th, 2008. He was so handsome and perfect, I can only imagine how incredible the life he has with the Lord. I don't understand why he isn't here with me now, but I know the Lord is perfect in all of His ways. I loved Jonathan before I met him and I will love him until I can hug him in eternity. I know he was called to glory without having to live through this earth and that is an honor. Losing Jonathan reminded me of how little I craved heaven. Like David said, "He will not come to me, I will go to him." I love you Jonathan. I miss you and many times I have wished I was holding you and doing all of the wonderful things I have done with Zeb and Gabriel. I bet your strong and handsome, and your heart is for the Lord. I can't wait to meet you son.